I need advice, preferably from another girl.

One of my ex's keeps contacting me. He won't leave me alone. Now, I only dated him for about two months, but in that time he fell head over heels for me. I, too, fell for him.

I broke up with him because he had too much drama in his life. I shall now list out what I consider the drama to be and the reasons I ended it:

1. He had a kid with a woman who was not his ex-wife.

2. He had been married before.

3. He smoked pot.

4. His ex-wife showed up at his apartment and tried seducing him--which was my final straw.

With all that being said, I wanted to remain friends with him, however, I don't think I can. I think I need to sever all ties with him, truly ending it once and for all. Why? Because he doesn't seem to get the hint that we will never get back together. He has too many flaws that are glaring and I don't have the patience to deal with them.

Just today he contacted me via facebook and told me he still loved me. I don't want to respond, and I am tempted to block him once and for all, as well as change my phone number. He doesn't get that I don't want him in my life (though I've told him time and time again), no matter how much I care about him. I don't love him, and I certainly don't love his drama.

Should I cut all ties? I really need to know.

Thanks!

--Rachel

 For the first time in a very long time I can say I am happy. I am happy with who I am, I am happy I have found what I want out of life, and I am happy because for once, people are seeing me for who I really am. I am no longer scared to show the girl behind the constant smile, rather, the smile now hides nothing. It is the truth of my heart.

I can smile and be happy because my life is good. I have people who love me, people whom I love dearly, and enough stability I can just relax and be me.

There have been times that I have been so broken emotionally, I never thought I would get the light in my heart back. But it is back.

I don't exactly know what triggered this.

Perhaps it is the fact that I know I am worthy of love. Perhaps it is because I know I have nothing to fear but fear itself. Or perhaps, just maybe, I have found what I have searched for in the past few years.

I do not need money to make me happy. I do not need people who drag me down and make me depressed in my life.

I need my family and dearest friends, and of course, a few cupcakes and fairy dust.

I feel like a princess, and it kind of scares me, but at the same time, it makes me smile with a never before felt emotion. I can't describe it, but it is a calmness that has enveloped me, making me see things as they should be, rather than as they are.

And I know God or whatever Higher Power is responsible. I know love is responsible. I know fate is responsible.

But most of all, I know I have had to go through my share of trials and tribulations to make me the woman I am today.

I have no fear. I know whatever happened will happen, and I am at peace with nature and humanity, regardless of humanity's sometimes hateful and rude appearance. None are born evil, and we create our own heaven and hell within us.

But things happen for a reason, whether to test us or to reward us.

I will never give up my dreams. I will never surrender to darkness and depression.

Afterall, everything bad is just a fleeting shadow, and it, too, will pass in time.

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Today is a beautiful day. I'm off to make the most of it.

Blah. I feel icky. I have a wicked sore throat and I feel like my brain is going to pop.

Lets see...what has been going on...well, for starters I have a test in my Food and Cultures class this week. Joy. And a quiz due by 10 am Wednesday...and I also have maps due that I haven't even STARTED working on.

Case study due for my other BMS class. I also need to read the book or suffer a bad grade on my test next week. Grrr...

I have NO desire to see my ECO test. I'm pretty sure that it went terribly.

And finally, worst of all, I have writer's block. =_=

I hate writers block. Actually, right now I hate everything. I'm taking some Nyquil and going to bed.